I don’t go online tumblr much and set the notification to be sent to my 2nd email (which exists solely for the purpose of receiving newsletters and notifications and therefore only opened every once in a month or so), and so I’m sorry for the late reply.
That article is cheesy but I’m glad for sure if it did some help. Hope you’re over it and already feel you’re at home wherever you are by now :-)
I was born on June and have always loved when it rains and that Hujan di Bulan Juni poem—that’s where I get my blog’s name. I also like the irony of those words; imagine having a rainy day on a month that is supposed o have shiny and hot days.
I haven’t read much of your writings but I’m going to start to do that right now. I once saw that mural you posted on twitter though, congrats for winning!
I once said to a friend that one of the best parts of my relationship is that I don’t even have to try to keep it working. It just works, it just goes. But lately I’ve been asking to myself if it’s really working or it’s actually broken but I decided not to bother myself. Pretended it works and doesn’t hurt as much as it truly is.
There are days when I consider myself a very lucky girlfriend. That day when I got sick and he was all that I had. That day when we danced for a short while. Our first year anniversary and the simple dinner.. But there are also days where I can’t help to feel alone and sad, and wished he was there next to me. Days like today.
I have tried everything within my reach to stay happy and equally busy. I joined my school’s student council for fuck sake. I even took a position I didn’t need. I hang out with my friends. I read books. I took multiple jobs. Workouts, watching TV series—anything to keep him out of my mind, yet none really works.
I remember how I used to thank him for making my day a happy one every time he dropped me off after our dates. Then one night, he asked if I wanted to feel that way every day. A question which I replied with an excited nod and a yes.
I remember he asked.
And I remember he didn’t promise that.